*author: niplav, created: 2024-01-29, modified: 2024-01-29, language: english, status: draft, importance: 3, confidence: possible*

In which I investigate whether not masturbating makes my mind clear.

Maybe_{65%}? Correlations between mindfulness and time since
last masturbation are generally <0.2, and sometimes negative.
But there seems to be a pretty clear trend of positive correlation with
concentration if we only look at sessions with >20 days of abstinence.

There is some received wisdom that ejaculation and masturbation in particular decreases meditation quality: The retreats of dhamma.org in the tradition of S.N. Goenka forbid any sexual activity, and Taoist sexual practices recommend semen retention. Since I track both my meditations and (a.m.a.b.) masturbations, I can check whether this is observationally true. Of course results from observational data can be due to confounders, but such results are more valuable than pure speculation, and may point to possible experimental investigations.

First, I load both meditation data and masturbation data (using my loading code from here):

```
>>> meditations=get_meditations()
>>> masturbations=get_masturbations()
```

Since I only started tracking my masturbations on 2021-01-15, I have to filter out all meditation I did before that:

```
tohu=masturbations['datetime'].min()
meditations=meditations.loc[meditations['meditation_start']>tohu]
```

And then I merge `meditations`

and `masturbations`

so that each meditation
is relation to the masturbation last before it:

```
meditations=meditations.sort_values('meditation_start')
masturbations=masturbations.sort_values('datetime')
combined=pd.merge_asof(meditations, masturbations, left_on='meditation_start', right_on='datetime', direction='backward')
['diff']=combined['meditation_start']-combined['datetime']
```

All hail `merge_asof`

!

Just to check whether the difference computed is the right one, I do a quick sanity check:

```
>>> combined['diff'].describe()
count 1462
mean 3 days 21:46:44.564929548
std 6 days 10:27:57.403873207
min 0 days 00:03:45.389000
25% 0 days 16:00:47.628250
50% 1 days 12:27:33.874500
75% 3 days 14:14:14.750500
max 39 days 09:24:06.877000
Name: diff, dtype: object
```

And now I can simply compute the correlation with time since last masturbation and concentration & mindfulness during meditation:

```
>>> combined[['mindfulness_rating', 'concentration_rating', 'diff']].corr(numeric_only=False)
mindfulness_rating concentration_rating diff
mindfulness_rating 1.000000 0.687853 0.088458
concentration_rating 0.687853 1.000000 -0.049699
diff 0.088458 -0.049699 1.000000
```

As one can see, the correlation between time since last masturbation and concentration/mindfulness are weak and contradictory, and I weakly conclude that masturbation does not influence meditation quality noticeably in practice regimes like mine. One might criticize my analysis for not including periods of long abstinence from ejaculation, which I guess is fair. So we can simply restrict the dataset to meditations 4 or more days after the last masturbation. We still have n=329, which is appreciable.

```
>>> combined_long=combined.loc[combined['diff']>pd.Timedelta('4d')]
>>> combined_long['diff'].describe()
count 329
mean 12 days 19:50:39.986796352
std 8 days 20:16:12.256869649
min 4 days 01:15:13.941000
25% 6 days 09:45:24.187000
50% 9 days 21:45:40.422000
75% 14 days 12:50:55.863000
max 39 days 09:24:06.877000
Name: diff, dtype: object
>>> combined_long[['mindfulness_rating', 'concentration_rating', 'diff']].corr(numeric_only=False)
mindfulness_rating concentration_rating diff
mindfulness_rating 1.000000 0.542909 0.169900
concentration_rating 0.542909 1.000000 -0.040382
diff 0.169900 -0.040382 1.000000
```

The correlation of ≅0.17 of abstinence-time with concentration is still not strong enough to convince me, but perhaps points in some interesting direction.

What if we look at exclude up to 30 days?

```
mindfulness_correlations=[]
concentration_correlations=[]
sample_sizes=[]
for i in range(0,30):
combined_long=combined.loc[combined['diff']>pd.Timedelta(str(i)+'d')]
sample_sizes.append(len(combined_long))
mindfulness_correlations.append(combined_long[['mindfulness_rating', 'concentration_rating', 'diff']].corr(numeric_only=False)['mindfulness_rating']['diff'])
concentration_correlations.append(combined_long[['mindfulness_rating', 'concentration_rating', 'diff']].corr(numeric_only=False)['concentration_rating']['diff'])
```

Plotting:

```
import matplotlib.pyplot as plt
fig=plt.figure(figsize=(8,8))
_, ax1 = plt.subplots()
ax2=ax1.twinx()
ax2.set_ylabel('Sample size')
ax1.plot(mindfulness_correlations, color='red', label='Mindfulness correlations')
ax1.plot(concentration_correlations, color='blue', label='Concentration correlations')
ax1.set_xlabel('Time since last masturbation (days)')
ax1.set_ylabel('Correlation (Pearson)')
ax2.plot(sample_sizes, color='green', label='Sample size')
ax1.legend()
ax2.legend()
plt.savefig('time_correlations.png')
```

Now *this* is interesting! Even just eye-balling suggests that abstaining
from masturbation might improve concentration, but has no effect on
mindfulness. That could be worth testing, so I'd like someone to do an
experiment on this (keeping a strict meditation schedule and randomizing
4-week pairs for masturbation/abstinence), since the sample sizes in
the upper ranges are so small (62 at 20 days, 45 at 25 days).

But I won't do it in the forseeable future, since other experiments have higher priority.